To what purpose?

Just to warn the masses, today is going to be another bit o’ randomness in print. I have many thoughts a’ swirling, so am using this forum to try to make some sense of them.

If anyone has been following along for the last few weeks, it might have become apparent that I am in the midst of an existential crisis. I am not only struggling with such mundane matters as why do I blog, but have taken it to the level of why do I bother doing anything … and for that matter do I in fact do anything? This struggle is not so much wrestling with depression as trying to define my sense of purpose.

Let’s look at blogging for a moment. It is one of the grand mysteries of my world why one post is popular when another is not. I put lots of thought into a post, and nobody even reads it. I just throw a few words of meaningless drivel down, and I have a record day. Not that it is always this way. And beyond that, why do some folk have huge followings when from what I can see they are not necessarily any more or less skilled than I am and not really doing anything differently on their blog? It truly boggles the mind! My last post was a test of the theory that key words had something to do with it, but while it may have a slight effect, that does not explain it. But beyond that, does it really matter anyway? Even if people DO end up catching one of my blogs, does it really effect anything?

That is easier to answer. Because I know how I am affected by reading another person’s blog, and I am no different from anyone else. So If I can be affected, so can others be affected by me. For instance just today, I was reminded of the power of words from one post that caught my eye. While another post reminded me of the heights of depravity humanity can reach.

I keep saying lately that I am lacking inspiration. That I am stagnating because I have no motivation, no goal to aim for. And this time someone actually read one of my posts and commented, refreshing my perspective. And proving to me that people do actually occasionally notice what I am saying:


You make me laugh with your responses…I think inspiration is controlled creativity…when we just “GO” we become truly inspired…we’re not in control of much in this universe so why should writing be any different. You convey what I imagine to be YOU in this verse…whimsical, focused and filled with curious enjoyment! Thanks! :)

I intend to delve into this thought further at some point, but what she said was  extremely profound to me. She reminded me that inspiration, like everything else, is a matter of perception. If we think we have none, then we basically shut ourselves off from it. She also reminded me (again) that it is not how many people we effect in our lives that matter. Just the quality of the ones that are affected.

Ok this bit of rambling is over for today. While I did not get any closer to defining my purpose in life, I am reminded that only I CAN create it. It is not a matter of finding purpose, it is a matter of me actually making one.

Silly of me to forget.

0 thoughts on “To what purpose?

  1. I am humbled that my post “caught your eye” as your blog caught mine! 🙂 Thanks for linking me too. I starting blogging as a way to let my prose seep into the world without judgement and have been grateful for my readers. I too some days get many views, and others none. However, I don’t worry about how many people are reading my blog as I worry more about how my writing affects the people who read it. Thanks again!

    • Even on my “many” view days I am still basically an unknown. Even with three blogs 🙂 But I am honored when those who have true skill take a liking to something I have come up with. So thank YOU!

  2. I think we all have or have had these thoughts. I think it comes down to what is your purpose or are your purposes in blogging. Do you have any particular goal in mind with your blogging?

    When I started I was frustrated that I was doing research and coming up with decent posts, but nobody was reading. I began sending emails to everyone I knew to get them to follow my blog. It helped my follower list a little, but still few were reading.

    Eventually I came to the realization that blogging is social media. When I visited other blogs, followed them, and left my comments many of them reciprocated. My following grew at a faster pace and I had regular comments on every post.

    Since then I’ve established a bit of a reputation and continue to have regular visitors who actually read and comment.

    Bottom line though is that it takes a lot of time and effort. Whenever I’m away and am not visiting other blogs, the comments on mine drop off. It’s a dilemma. I have other things I need to do but I don’t want to lose my audience.

    If you want a large following you will have to either work hard for it, become so famous that people will come to you, or provide content that i s so unique or such required reading that your site will be referred by many and you will be a mouthpiece of whatever your specialty is so that people will be there because of that.

    That is the why of the huge followings of some other blogs and some that are as you say truly mediocre. This latter fact is truly laughable to me, but if they are drawing the audience you have to admire them for that. It’s kind of like why certain mediocre books are best sellers.

    Good luck and I hope you find the answers to your questions. And I hope we both find more purpose in what we are doing.

    Tossing It Out

    • Thanks for the input (and the useful insight). I think I am more questioning the value of putting that kind of effort into a blog in the first place. What does it really achieve. I don’t comment on a lot of blogs because if I do I never actually leave the computer. So on the one hand I understand why others don’t read my own stuff. But if my words are not worth reading in their own right, what value is there in my forcing them down people’s throats? I am questioning the whole concept of social media these days. But it is also much more than just blogging. It seems to me value is getting lost to popularity across the board. We are image driven instead of content driven. To me that is insanity. I don’t actually have a specific purpose other than to share my thoughts … some of which I believe are actually good ones. But why bother if nobody will take anything from them unless I beg? Anyway thanks for the insight again! 🙂

  3. I agree with you here and it is a real conundrum for me. I see myself as using blogging as a platform as is recommended for writers. However the irony is that blogging hinders me from writing other than that in my blog posts.

    I’ve been posting about this same topic on various occasions. It does come down to balance, but if I fall, which direction do I fall in? I’ve established something with blogging, but is it going to get me anything that I’ve been striving for.

    Oh, what to do? Your questioning is valid. My conclusions are probably pretty accurate. And it’s all a bit crazy and frustrating. But I will say that the opportunities offered to writers are probably better now than ever before.

    Tossing It Out

    • Thanks again. That is is the core of it. I am so busy with the blogging that I am letting other things slide, yet it really has gotten me no where. But it IS a good creative outlet. Ah well. I will just keep on plugging and hopefully I will find the balance 🙂

  4. Thanks for musing over my post about the White Buffalo calf. The world’s a pretty rough place right now – not able to control that- only our responses to it.
    You aren’t stagnating – just more like period of growth during which thoughts are being evaluated, reorganized, before new directions in thought and action begin. It’s the way the human/brain works. If you were a child you would be “acting out” as the brain internalizes new information and tries to put the puzzle of life together in a new way that is meaningful after previous experiences and thoughts. Growth is sometime uncomfortable.
    Look for universal truths across time and place?
    It will all settle down and balance will be regained
    (Meanwhile, fresh air, sunshine, lots of water ( helps thinking) and at least walking (exercise good). There’s always treasures waiting to be found on the most mundane walk…if you are looking
    Hang in there

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