Deluding myself back into action!

As I have mentioned, I have been struggling with the whole “Why bother?” concept for sometime now. This not only covered blogging, but pretty much everything to do with life these days. Why look for another pointless job that will only make me miserable for instance. I solved that issue pretty easily by not really looking. But sadly this makes for other issues, such as an actual income so I can do stuff. For a while I was operating under the concept that I would finish one (or both) of the books I have started, and actually attempt to sell them and get some income that way. I was also going with the whole delusion that my writing might get me somewhere.

But in my recent existential dilemma, I was wondering not so much whether I had any skill and could complete any of these project, but rather would anyone actually be interested in BUYING anything I write. I am not unskilled, but I have no patience for the popularity contest that success has become these days. It seems to me that there is more chance of selling something by playing the game of social networking and marketing YOURSELF rather than actually having a quality product.

So I stopped on the books for a while. And while I have still been blogging, it basically meant I was doing absolutely NOTHING useful or productive in my life whatsoever.

Then after my bit of whining yesterday, I was reminded of one simple little fact. Who cares what the world thinks? I enjoy what I am doing for a change, and even if nobody really wants to buy anything I write, or see any photos I take, I have the satisfaction of creating things. So enough with my whining . Just get on with it. Maybe I can make some money at it. Maybe I can not.

But I definitely have no chance of it if I don’t at least finish what I started!!

That said I will simply take what joy I can out of creating, even if no one views it. As for the whole having an income so I can actually live a little thang … well I haven’t figured that one out yet. But I do know that whining about it doesn’t help 🙂

Today I finished another chapter of one of the books. And while I have still not really found my creative rhythm again, the point is I have made the effort again. We will see were my new vague sense of determination gets me this time!

0 thoughts on “Deluding myself back into action!

  1. You’re not wrong about it being a popularity contest, which sometimes gets really tedious. We can’t though let this stand in the way of our creativity. A sense of determination, now matter how vague is like wind for our potential sails (or should that be sales? – LOL).You never know, it could turn into a full blown gale.

    • To switch metaphors a bit, I am a little tired of spinning my wheels haha Tough to write about life when ya can’t afford to live it too 🙂 But thanks for the encouraging words!

  2. Well, I read most of your posts. But I don’t often comment which is the way it is with other blogs I follow or randomly visit. I would spend all day on the computer and in blogland if I had my druthers. But I don’t and that is prolly a good thing.There really is more to life than blogging.

    Anyway, glad to read that your are feeling a bit better. And really a little w(h)ine now and then does help!

    • Not sure I feel any better. Just bored! 😀 Not to demean those who do read my blogs regularly (and I know you are one) but in blogging terms, nobody actually reads my blogs. But as I said, if only a few do and happen to enjoy, then only a few do and happen to enjoy. I am not gonna change how things work and am not willing to play the silly games that are required for actual notice. So I will just keep plugging and if those few people continue to enjoy I am happy.

  3. I think–I do that you know–it is more important for the author to like what s/he writes than what others think. I don’t have many followers and no great numbers in the daily stats–comparatively–but I like what I am writing, it makes me happy, gets me to thinking and pondering, and keeps me off the streets. But then I have no aspirations to make money from what I write. Maybe that is why numbers aren’t concerning me. Although I do admit to checking them! :~)

    • I never planned on actually making money from blogging. But I did have the naive belief that it would provide me with some exposure. Silly me! Now that all my delusions have been revealed, I can get on with just enjoying it haha. Thanks for the input again!


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